So I've returned to Ellensburg to finish school. The last year was pretty rough for me and I'm glad I had some time off, but because of the late timing of my decision to come back, my move back up here was very rushed. I wanted to get a job on campus, but being the socially anxious person that I am, I applied half-heartedly to jobs that seemed to require too much responsibility or competence. I had no idea what I was getting myself into.... :) I had an interview for a very good position almost immediately after I applied to it in mid-August that would begin on September 1st. Knowing that I'd need to be in Ellensburg for any potential future interviews even if I didn't get that job, Jordan drove over to scoop me up from Walla Walla, and although I had come up here with the understanding that I would be staying with him for two or three weeks, I've actually ended up couch surfing for the last three weeks (not Jordan's fault, btw, he has a roommate that's really...starting to cause problems). I have been frantically searching for apartments, a room, a roommate to share an apartment with the whole time, and have had NO success. Everything was too expensive, too far away or both. I had specific requirements for housing, and a list of preferences, but I wasn't expecting to have any of them met. I looked at a very nice apartment next door to Jordan's old house, but it was far beyond my budget. I also looked at a room on Monday, expecting it to be a lovely arrangement that, although a bit more than I'd have wanted to pay for a shared situation, I would have accepted it considering how much it would save me each month.
The room was in a 1960s ranch style house and after its conversion to a bedroom from the garage, the room had not even been finished. I could see black mold around the tub from the doorway, and the hideous dark "wood" parquet flooring was horribly installed so that there were large gaps between each tile. Jordan was silent, which I knew instantly meant disapproval, but he didn't say anything to do me. I was determined to take the room - My back hurts from sleeping on a recliner, I'm sick of showering in the grossest bathroom I've ever seen, I'm sick of having nothing to do but sit awkwardly in my friend's house all day or walk around in the blazing heat with a very heavy pack on, and an exponentially-increasing distress about overstaying my welcome (I never even feel comfortable staying at my mom's house, I always feel unwelcome when I'm in a place that's not my own). But I had a small wave of panic as Jordan and I were watching Riddick (holy.lord. THAT MOVIE had THAT BUDGET?! Idiocracy is horribly accurate), and I didn't sleep well. When I woke up the next morning at the buttcrack of dawn I had a complete and utter panic attack and instantly burst into tears. I didn't want to take that nasty, overpriced room that was half a mile from north campus (and a billion miles away from everything else), but felt obliged to do so, as declining it meant continuing to depend upon my friends' hospitality. Nevertheless, I turned down the room, and after bawling my eyes out, Jordan sent me of to campus to meet up with my boss.
I am now the Administrative Assistant to the VP of Student Affairs, and will be helping to oversee the Student Academic Senate and their budget. I will have a work laptop to use, and will have business cards. I am going to have an enormous amount of responsibility, will meet almost everyone on campus that I need to know, and by the end of the year I hope to have a much more robust resume so that I can move onto the next phase of my life. I'm incredibly excited to be working with the VP (who is a student - the whole Associated Student Body is made up of students...duh? haha I don't know how these things work, I'm not involved in anything!), she's amazing and brought me some no-bake cookies yesterday, so obviously I'm going to be whoring myself out for future treats throughout the year.
I've also acquired housing (which has been an incredibly uncomfortable, stressful, deflating, arduous process) and now have my own enormous kitchen in which to make my own treats to share! After I met up with my boss, I decided to head to the history department to meet up with my adviser and file an independent study form. The department secretary, Angie, is also usually "in the know" about local goings on and rooms available, so I figured if I asked her she could at least tell me which apartments in town would be my best bet. When she heard I was looking for housing she immediately started listing off listings she'd seen around town, and then grabbed the phone book and started making calls. She made an appointment for me to view an apartment available downtown (I had been avoiding the downtown area as much of it is often loud every night) that had just opened up. I agreed to go out of desperation - it was far more than I wanted to pay, and getting my own apartment meant having to borrow money from my mom to cover a deposit and first/last month's rent. Nevertheless, I was sure my job would pay enough to cover at least most of the rent, and I am still getting some financial aid (though I'd rather not rely on that). I paid the application fee and the rent/deposit (they didn't require another month's rent, which meant that thanks to mom fronting me the money, I was able to commit to it), and crossed my fingers that things would work out financially - perhaps Jordan would even want to move in with me, which would instantly change my financial forecast each month, or I'd end up getting max hours each week at work (turns out I won't HAVE to work max hours each week, because I'll be making more than I was anticipating, but I will be working enough hours at that pay for rent, utilities and internet).
Hideous paint color - grey so very often looks elegant regardless of shade or paint finish, but this color is...I don't know. Like a chocolate milkshake with two leafs of kale blended in. I need to put some sort of wreath or ribbons in a pretty color (duck egg blue? what goes with chocolate kale milkshake green-grey and that hideous carpet?)
This is the bedroom (the doorway to the right leads to the front door) and closet. The closet is ENORMOUS, I will be able to store plenty of food, perhaps even a bike in here if necessary.
I didn't have any good pictures of the living room, but you get the general idea. The laundry room is right next door to my apartment, and there are only a small handful of other residents so there's not going to be a big issue finding time to do laundry. I have made several lists of items I need/want to furnish it. Jordan is lending me the use of his housewares, as he's living in a furnished house, and Angie apparently has items to lend me as well. I am on such a tight budget that it's going to be difficult to get through the next few weeks, but once I've gotten financial aid and my paychecks start rolling in, I should be able to post some updates on how I'm arranging it. It won't be fancy, but I think I can bring out the charming historic feel pretty well. Having some cute curtains for each doorway (I personally love that I have simultaneously a closed and open floor plan) will instantly cheer it up. Lamps would be next - the lighting is quite poor, but lamps can be acquired fairly cheaply and having them throughout the apartment will make it instantly cozier. Beyond that, standard furniture would be nice but I honestly don't think I'll be able to buy any furniture this year, so I'll be prowling the streets looking for free furniture throughout.
I am excited for the upcoming school year. I think it will be a good time for personal growth. The last few weeks have already been the most terrifying of my life, but I've managed to find solutions to each problem that's arisen. I'm hoping to continue that trend, and not get bogged down in anxieties or doubt. And I'm hopeful that Jordan and I will be able to continue to figure things out (we broke up amicably due to the distance when I relocated to Walla Walla. We managed to see one another throughout the summer) and perhaps some time during the upcoming months he'll want to move into the apartment with me. It would be a very pleasant arrangement all around!
I always try to blog regularly, but it never seems to happen. Eventually I'll have another update, though!